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I need to start writing again. Blogging is what used to keep me sane. I guess now there's not much to keep me there. I've been really weird lately. I'm not exactly sure why though.

Quick recap of the things that have gone on in my life:

I was the third place Greek God of all fraternity men. Boom.
SOAR this summer has been absolutely amazing! I can't think of a better job for me than this. I get to do what I love all day every day. And it truly is the best experience, plus I get to meet the best incoming students!
With me being away from home, however, it drove me and my girlfriend apart and we ended up breaking up. I broke up with her, and it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. We still talk almost everyday, so it's not too bad.

This is it for now though, cause I really need to go to bed since I work tomorrow. Fail. Night world!

Lets Get To It!

I bet you want to know how life is going lately. Well, it's been going pretty well. I'm in love with my life. And i don't see that changing anytime soon.

Greek week is finally over. It was an absolute blast. This was hands down the best pairing ever. I fell in love with Alpha Chi Omega and the men of Phi Delt have been the shit. We got screwed over for a lot of things, but everyone knows that we had by far the best chemistry. Greek jam was SO legit. Yet again, we got screwed hardcore by the judges, but the ENTIRE greek community knows that we should have at very least placed.

Being Greek God for Pi Kapp has been the best experience i've yet to have in college. I got to meet so many people, and now i go around campus and people stop me and tell me how much they loved me at the pageant. It's kind of surreal. I love everything about it though.

And then you have this girl. The girl that finally admitted that she liked me last night. The girl that has had me going since last semester. She's amazing. She's sassy.

Song of the day:

Glad You Came by The Wanted

I Left Something Out

I'm really sorry that I haven't really been keeping up with this. To be completely honest, i think the biggest reason i haven't been is because i don't think anyone really reads it anymore. I originally made this blog so that my friends could know about my life and stay up to date even if i was a bad friend that couldn't always be there for them and be open for them. It hurts me each and every day thinking about all the friends i once had, and the relationships i once had. And how i am the one that ruined them. I haven't really been available for anyone. People try to contact me all the time, and find out how i'm doing. But sometimes it's just so hard to find time. As bad as it sounds, i just can't fit everything into a day. I don't want to just send a few texts and be done, i want to actually have a full conversation with everyone. But i don't have the time to do that. I've been working on getting better at that though.

Maybe one day i'll be able to juggle everything and be involved in everyone's lives. And here's the thing, i don't hold this against anyone. Because this is my fault. I'm the one that isn't such a good friend. It'll get better. Slowly, but surely.

 For the few people that may or may not look at this, here's what's going on. Recruitment is finally over for Pi Kapp. I had one of the most successful recruitments of all time. And it lifted so much weight off of my shoulders. I love living in the house now, but sometimes i do miss being an RA. I knew this would happen. I am representing Pi Kapp for Greek God this semester. It's already proven to be quite the challenge. I've had so much to do between classes, recruitment, giving tours, meetings, greek jam practice, and now putting everything together to be Greek God. And to top it all off, i just found out today that i will be getting auctioned off to sorority girls next week for a date. That could either be really cool, or a huge downer. We shall see how it goes.

 I'm excited for the rest of this semester. However at the same time, i'm really nervous for it. I just don't know what it all entails. This could be the semester of all semesters. I think it will be.

 Oh and my birthday is in less than a week. Boom.

 Song of the day: I Can Barely Say by The Fray

2012

Happy New Year! I really wanted to post this before midnight came along so it would be on the first and not the second. Any who, a quick update on what's been going on i guess.

I've been keeping myself busy for the most part lately. Hanging out with some people here and there, and a lot of going out with my parents. They wanted to buy all new couches for the living room and the basement. So we've been going around looking at different stores to see if they find anything that they like. Well, we finally found some from Ashley Furniture (about damn time) for both areas. Honestly didn't think my parents were going to spend as much money as they did on furniture. But they look legit!

New years eve was AMAZING! That was probably the best one yet. I got to bring it in with some amazing people that i call my family. Needless to say, we did it right. We had so much fun, and even more that we can't remember. I got my midnight kiss from an unexpected girl, but it's okay because it was totally awesome. And now i have one week before i get to go back!

So now for this week, i have to figure out what all i'm taking down to the house and go buy some stuff as well. And on top of that, try to make some room and see some people that i haven't seen yet over break. I think i'm going to make a trip up to the high school at one point this week. We shall see. I most likely will. I'm so excited to leave. About. Damn. Time.

I have a lot of high hopes for this new year. 2011 was okay and all, not the best, but not the worst. I really really really think 2012 is going to be a year to remember. And it's going to be the year that i truly find out what i'm made of and for my dreams to come true. Plus, there may or may not be a certain lady i'm becoming interested in, and starting out the year with a lady friend wouldn't be half bad! I'm going to do a lot and accomplish a lot in this year. Just you wait and see!

Song of the day:

Man in the Hat by Mac Miller

Made IT.

Alright, let me start out by saying i know i broke my promise. To be honest, there just hasn't been much going on lately to write about. Being home is just, boring. I don't know how some of these people do it. I don't know how they stay here for college. I don't know how they come home as much as they do. I just don't get it. It makes absolutely no sense to me. I'm pretty sure i would end up killing myself if i had to stay here for college or go even close to here. There's just NOTHING here at home. Absolutely nothing.

That's one of the biggest things i've come to realize this break. I have nothing here for me anymore. I honestly don't know why i come home other than to see my parents and just be in this house. And to be completely honest, i only need a day or two for that. There's nothing here for me. Never will be. There's no one left here for me either. I just don't belong here.

I guess i always kind of knew that. I just didn't want to admit it. But with everything that has been happening in my life lately, i just grew up. I grew up a lot. And with growing up, i let go. I let go of so much this semester. It's been an ongoing thing, but i think this semester i finally actually let go. I let go of my "hometown", of my high school, of my high school friends, of everything i was back then.

I'm no where near the person i was back then. I find myself seeing people from high school or talking to them via text/phone call, and i have nothing to say to them. My life is just so different and the person i am now is different. No one that knew me then really knows me now.

In a way, i really like that. I found myself. I found my purpose, and my passion. I found the person i was meant to be. I found what i am capable of, and what i'm not. In its simplest form, I GREW UP. It's scary. It really is. But i kind of really like that too.

 I guess what i'm trying to say is, my goal for college is actually coming together a lot sooner than i thought. I can look into the mirror and be proud of the person i am. To sum it all up, I made something of myself. A person that people want to be, and a person that's known. A person that i'm so incredibly proud to be.

Song of the day:

Fear by OneRepublic

Well Damn

I'm sitting here in the library. I have been for about two hours now. And the only thing i've accomplished is finding two sources for my ten page paper due in less than a week. And on top of that, i have a geology test that i have in less than a week as well. Actually, the test and paper are due on the same day. I hate everything. And the thing is, youtube distracts the HELL out of me. I watch one video, which just makes me want to watch another one, and so on and so forth. It kind of sucks. A lot. So i guess i was officially dating a girl. For a week and a half. It obviously ended. She was crazy. But not THAT crazy. Any who, it was a nice change of pace from the usual. I am officially the recruitment chair for pi kapp. Which is pretty neat. I will be quitting my job as an RA to pursue recruitment. One door closes, another opens. Go me. I will also be CONSIDERING to go out and represent Pi Kapp for Greek God during Greek Week this upcoming semester. We shall see how my mind sets on that one. Any who, other than that everythings been hell. It is definitely a week from hell and i'm just taking it a minute at a time. GAH. Song of the day: If I Ain't Got You by Jay Sean

Looks

So today i went and got a haircut. I kind of needed one, but it was mainly cause i wanted it to be shorter. Anyway, i tried a new outfit out today as well after i got my haircut. Here's the thing, most of you know that i don't see myself the same way other see me. I honestly don't find myself to be attractive or cute or anything like that. But today i looked in the mirror, and damn; I looked fucking good. It was weird. Like everything just flowed and it all pieced together. So overall, it was a good day. I've figured out that if you look good, you'll feel good. And if you feel good, you'll make sure you have a good day and nothing brings you down. That's exactly what i did. Hopefully i have more of these "awesome cute/good looking days" in the near future. I could use them! Song of the day: Happiness by The Fray