Devil Town

I've been torn between a lot of stuff. Mainly my life. A lot of it just doesn't make sense anymore.

I've been watching a lot of Friday Night Lights. And when i say a lot, i mean i've watched every single episode from seasons 1-4 and a few episodes from season 5. Now before i go any further, i'm going to go ahead and say this. I now see why this show has been nominated for an Emmy. It is truly the BEST series i have EVER seen. It just pulls you in and keeps you there.

Now since i've been watching a lot of said show, i've been thinking a lot about where i want my life to be. What i wish my life would be. And what i want for my future. I huge chunk of me wants to be back in Alabama. As much as i'm always bitching about it, and hating it when i'm there, i've come to realize that it was the place i grew up. Basically. But then i think about it more and then it hits me. I don't want to really be in Alabama. I just want to be back in the south. But more so than that, i want to be in a small town again. A small town where everyone knows everyone. Where your schools only consist people from your town. That's what i want. That's what i want for my kids, for me, for my life. I've always grown up in a small town, and i truly miss it.

I've come to another realization that i've been trying to figure out for quite some time now. Yes, i do want a relationship. I just couldn't figure what if i wanted one or not, because lets face it, being single has its perks. However, i'm definitely ready for a relationship. I don't care if i'm in college. This is the perfect time to find that person for you. The person you're supposed to be with forever and always. I'm ready, and i'm up.

I'm leaving on sunday to start this new semester. Can you believe it? I'm finally leaving. This is it.

Song of the day:

Devil Town by Tony Lucca