Look At Me Meow.

Here we are again folks, and might I say, what a fancy seeing you here.

Truth be told, i haven't been doing much of anything since i've been home. I wake up, eat, watch some t.v., take a shower, eat again, watch more t.v./movies, and then go to sleep. There has also been a lot of YouTubing going on.

But in this time, i've been able to get a good bit of thinking done. I mean, it hasn't really been progressive towards anything, just thinking in general. Lately i've been thinking about two things, grudges and dreams. Let's address the first of the two.

GRUDGES! AH! RAWR! I don't get them. I honestly don't. Yeah, things happen. Shit goes sour. In the end, you can still not let something go but still be able to tolerate the issue/person. Prime example, Matt is a complete douche queef. No problem in saying that. Have i let go of the things that have happened? Absolutely not. Am i willing to look past them and tolerate it for the sake of being civil and happy? Of course. What's the point in being all pissy towards each other if all it does is stir and create drama?! It's not logical. It puts you in a miserable spot, and the ones around you in a miserable spot because they have to deal with it too. Micaela and i went through a lot. Good and bad. I'm kind of surprised that she didn't hold a grudge against me. But through everything that did happen, look at us now. We're friends, we talk, I'd go as far as saying we're good friends. She wasn't just my girlfriend, she was my best friend. Things like that don't just disappear. Just like my friendship with Matt isn't going to just disappear. Maybe it's because i think things through logically, or because i'm an idiot. Who knows. The way i see it, holding a grudge with someone only hurts you, and the ones that you care about. So get the fuck over it. Suck it up, stop making excuses for everything, and deal with the issues that you obviously have. If you're holding a grudge than you obviously have something you need to work through. So stop running from them or just trying to cover them up by erasing the situation from your life. Cause in end, you'll turn out worse than you ever imagined.

DREAMS! AH! FUCKIN' Dicaprio! In all seriousness, dreams are truly magic. Yet another example! WOO! So ever since i can remember, every time i had a dream they would always be very detailed. Most of the time, my mind could control not only my actions, but the world i'm in as well-- to an extent that is. My dreams were the playground for my imagination and heart. The creepy thing, is that anytime i get hurt, like shot, stabbed, bitten, etc., I can actually feel it in real life, at the exact location that it happened in the dream. Freaky shit. But sometimes i'll get the same dreams, over and over again. Not the exact same. But the same general feel with different locations and people, but usually keeping one person constant. Lately, i've been having this kind of dream. The person that stayed the same was a girl. I could see her perfectly, and i didn't know who she was in real life, but i knew her in the dream- pretty well actually. I could never figure out who this girl was, and i could never completely remember why she was in my dreams. Like i didn't know what her role was. Well, the other day, i hopped on the good ol' Facebook and on the side where they show you people that you may know, was just a girl so i clicked on her wondering if i knew her. I looked at her pictures (yes i creeped) and she was the exact girl from my dream. It was her. Creepy part: I have never met nor have i ever even seen this girl before. I still can't figure out how it all happened. The world works in mysterious ways.

Welp, that's all folks. Keep in touch. Don't be a stranger. Let the words flow through you like the blood your heart pumps. Every new day is a day that you can make yourself just a little bit better. Not for her, or for him, or anyone. Just for you. Leave the world better then you found it. My challenge to you all.

Song of the day:

A Moment of Peace by Jarrod Gorbel