Bottle It Up, and Let It Go.

I'm lost. I'm completely lost with my life right now. I don't know what i want to do. And it's frustrating the hell out of me. If business isn't me, than what is?! Is it public relations? Is it graphic design? Is it geology? Or is it the one thing i've been trying to push away...Law?

I have no clue. But through and through, i'm walking forward. I know i'll figure it all out one day. I just hate not having a plan and feeling like i'm wasting time as my friends keep progressing forward.

And then there's this girl. The girl that in this short period of time has gotten to know me inside and out. She knows everything. And the best thing is, the second i see her face, everything gets better. She's the girl that i can lay around for hours at a time and not even say a word. The girl that will run her hand through my hair while i take a nap. The girl that i've always wanted, but never found.

You know, i told you to do whatever you needed to do. I never told you not to be with him, nor to break up with him. I merely said that if you're going to drop a friend for a boy, don't expect them to be around. You say i dropped you for her. No. I didn't. I stopped talking to you all on my own. We hit some rough patches. And that was that. People do change. But asking someone you care about to not talk to someone they care about doesn't make sense, now does it. I know i was crappy to you. There's no doubt about it. And that was over a year ago. If you ever want to talk to me am i going to ignore you? No. You know i wouldn't do that. I'm just not going to try and put forth the effort first. I'm happy for you, i really am. And i really do hope that he turns out to be everything that you're hoping.

Song of the day:

Iridescent by Linkin Park