One Day We'll Live Out Loud

Sometimes I wonder, what would life be like if I would have made some different decisions. I wonder about where I am here, who I've met, and what I've done. None of which I change.

I wonder what it would be like if I would have stayed home. What would my life be like? Would i still be with Rachel? Would I be closer to the friends that I've grown away from? It's all truly a mystery.

Now this doesn't mean I'm second guessing the decisions I have made. I am quite proud of who I am, what I've accomplished, and where I'm headed. But something makes me think about what life would be like and how different it would be if I would have done things a little differently.

I'm purely happy. Most of the time. And to be honest, I haven't been this way in such a long time. Something is different. About life, about me. And that is the reason that has brought me to think about everything. Would I still be this happy if I would have made different choices? Would my parents be happier and more proud of me if I would have stayed home and gone to a more "prestigious" university? Would I finally live up to everyones expectations and not be a let down? Or would I have been a let down to myself? Such. A. Mystery.

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