Crap.

I screwed up grandpa. I screwed up big time.

You always taught me to put others before myself. And I didn't I put myself before her. I put myself before everyone. Now I'm hurting her more than ever. This isn't what I had intended. Not at all.

After being so caught up in going undecided and being around her, I forgot that everything I say and do not only affects me, but the ones around me. I messed up your life. I'm the one to blame. Not yourself. No one else. It seems like I've become a master at this.

I'm sorry. That's all that I can say.

Roseball tomorrow.