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Monday, January 24, 2011

The Darkness

Something is brewing. A storm of some sort. Between whom I know not, nor do I know over what.

That has been the overall theme of what has been rushing in my mind. I can feel it, that gut feeling. Last time I got a feeling like this, well, needless to say it wasn't good.

These dreams need to stop. I'm trying, can't you see. I'm talking to you, big man, and you. Mr. almighty, you know I've been trying, whether she knows it or not. And you know that sometimes I do put myself through the pain, just so I can feel something at all. But she doesn't, but she should know or at least have an idea. What more do you want from me? I practically gave it all up for you, but you still wanted nothing to do with me. So stop haunting me. Stop making me relive all the memories. Stop making me have these dreams that instill hope. Because I don't want it. I don't want hope if it has to do with you. Why? Because all it is and all it will ever be is false hope. Everyone is right. I don't want to admit it, but I will. The ship has sailed, and you're never coming back. Tough. Just please, I'm begging you, let me live in peace.

True love will create a bond unlike no other. A bond that can never be broken. A bond that you can never see. Friendship is a bond you can see, because it is a clear line. A line that is there for entertainment. It can and a lot of the times is crossed. The bond of love however creates this passion of hate. Of despise. But underlying all of it is yet another layer of love. The core. Within this core lies something much stronger than mere friendship. There lies your soul. And with this bond, friendship is inevitable; more so best friendship. But sometimes the hate gets so consuming that the core becomes nothing more than a shadow. This is when you have something, something called the darkness.

It's times like these that I wish I was back in high school so I wouldn't have to go to school. Not. I would take going to classes everyday over that hands down.

Song of the day:

Rocketeer by Far East Movement Ft. Ryan Tedder

5 comments:

Can't Jump For Joy said...

That whole paragraph about friendship being awesome but love being hateful or whatever...yeah I can't understand that. Yeah, love can lead to defining hate. Both love and hate are passionate things, but I don't see how love just creates hate.

Big V said...

No like, with true love comes this layer of hate. More so despise. And under that layer is another layer of love, where a metaphorical soul is. That's how i see love. I see it as a three tiered layer cake. I don't necessarily think the love "creates" the hate, per say, but rather it just comes with it.

Can't Jump For Joy said...

But I don't get it why you think there is a layer of hate in the "cake". What role does it play?
I'm sorry for making you explain this, but just want to get it.

Big V said...

it's not truly "hate". it's a hybrid version of it. think of it as a rough patch. every love has that layer. the deeper you get into love the more layers your peel back. eventually you get so far that you begin to get annoyed, don't see the person in the same way, begin to "hate" them. the lucky ones keep on peeling though. and that is when you hit that core. look at every TRUE LOVE relationship. they all go through those layers.

Can't Jump For Joy said...

See, now that makes SO much more sense. :)