Marrying Destiny

I want everyone to do something. Take five minutes out of your lives and evaluate yourself. Are you truly happy with who you are? With the things you've left behind? With who you are around now?

These are some of the questions that we hide ourselves from, for the mere fact of being afraid of what the answer might be. None of us are perfect by any means, but there needs to be a good dose of logic in everyone's lives. Pushing away people that mean the most to you in life isn't the most logical thing in this life, now is it? People slip up, it's human nature. But taking things to such extremities to where you are putting that relationship up in flames does no one good. Trust me. No matter how bad things get, destroying relationships with the people that have always been there for you is never the answer. So take these five minutes and figure out if the path you're on is the path you want to be on.

On Tuesday, after dinner, I randomly got a fever. And i've been in bed ever since then. Today i feel 1000 times better. Now it feels like nothing ever happened. But tuesday night and yesterday morning was the worst. Because of that, i didn't go to any of my classes yesterday, nor did i go to any today (just to be safe). I mainly didn't go today because when i woke up, i had every intention of going. But then i felt really hot like i might still have a fever or something. So just to be on the safe side i decided not to. But tomorrow i'll definitely be going.

It's truly funny how the time line shifts dramatically. Three months ago if anyone would've told me that the love of my life would hate me and the person that hated me the most would end up being the person i talk to the most now, i would've probably laughed until i died. But that is exactly what happened. I'm not quite sure how, but it did. I'm glad that you and i are talking again. I truly did miss it. But the fact that the love of my life now absolutely hates me, well, i can't quite swallow that yet.

I had a dream tuesday night that i was dieing. In a hospital. So you came to see me. The fact that you came to see me was surprising enough. But then YOU were so heartbroken that you tried to kill yourself, but it failed. However, with your "issue", you were going to die anyway. So we were both in the hospital waiting to die. And this is the part that still gets me every time i think about it; we got married.

Song of the day:

Marry Me by Train