Break Free, and Grow Up. For Once.

Last night was the most eventful night of my college career. No specifics. It was definitely a new experience. I felt, like i was the old me again. Upbeat, outgoing, not caring what others thought of me, talking to everyone, and of course being the flirtatious monster that i used to be. Gosh i missed being like that. Ah, what a rush.

These dreams are getting out of hand. I'm falling in love with a girl that potentially doesn't exist. And the more i think about it, the more she really does look like Michelle Monaghan. It's scary. Yet so addicting. I want it. I want that feeling again. Something tells me it gets better. The feeling that is. I'm slowly picking up the pieces.

Coming to Missouri State has been such a great decision. I really hoped that this wouldn't end up being something i regret like other people have done when they choose a college. This is a place that i actually like being. I love every bit of it here. And it's funny, because i talk to my other friends at other colleges, and i hear their stories. I realize that i'm lucky, and this isn't the "norm". I came to a place i absolutely love, and i can't even count how many great friends i've made here. Even aside from my brothers, i have met and made so many friends. Crazy part, i didn't go to high school with them. You have to break away, because after a point you realize that the thinking of a person in high school and a person in college is completely different. Some people like to deny this, and keep thinking like they are in high school. But be real with yourself. We have different priorities, different obligations, different views. We're actually working towards our lives. The minute you graduate, the way you think completely changes. The further you get into college, the more it sinks in. What i've noticed is that the closer you are to home, the more likely it is that you deny this and stay attached. Hell i was three hours away and i was attached. Moving on with your life is the only way you can be truly successful in college. And by successful i mean actually growing. Also joining Pi Kappa Phi has been an absolute thrill. I bring this up now because Pi Kapp is really one of the biggest things that has made me grow up and take responsibility for myself. It's made me be someone i'm not ashamed to be. I really can't tell you where i'd be without the fraternity. I can't imagine it.

Remember who you were, and who you are. Your past never leaves you, but you have to leave your past. We're all growing up, and so are our minds. It's just not possible. I'm turning 19 in a week. This time next year i'll be turning 20 in a week. 20. TWENTY. I'll be in my twenties in one year and one week. Break free now, or you're going to regret it.

I'm going to watch the super bowl tomorrow. Sole reason, new Transformers: Dark of the Moon trailer will be playing during it. Win.

Song of the day:

A Little Piece of Heaven by Avenged Sevenfold