Engagement On A Birthday.

Hello world. Happy Valentines day to all. Man, it feels great to be back. I feel it now. I really do. I feel like the old me. Not the old, old me. But a newer version of the old me. I feel good. Real good.

I am now 19 years old. WOOOOOOO. This time next year i will be in my twenties. I must say, celebrating my birthday was a BLAST. My brothers had a party Saturday night, and the second it was midnight, the whole house went insane. All i ever wanted was to feel loved. My brothers and my friends replaced that void. It was definitely a great night. A night i won't forget (or remember fully) for a long time.

I got engaged that night too! Not really, but i did propose to a girl and she said yes. Best part, i proposed using a spider ring! :) It was Abigail. I love that girl. She took care of me all night. She has a boyfriend, so it's not like i was making a move on her or anything. Now we have this ongoing thing of being engaged to each other and planning a wedding. It's all in fun.

I went through all of my RA interviews. What a relief! They all went fairly well. I hope anyway. I'll find out March 1st if i got it or not. So if you don't hear from me that day, you'll know why. UA interview is on Wednesday. I'm uber nervous for it. Yes, uber.

I'm not going to say i'm fully happy. Because i'm not. But i am getting there. :)

It's finally clear to me. It really isn't that i don't want to fall in love again. It's really that i just don't want to fall in love with you again. Thank god.

Burning bridges, taking names. That's how we do. That's how I do.

I get to see my cutie tonight :) YES YES YES.

Song of the day:

I Need A Doctor by Dr. Dre and Eminem feat. Skyler Grey